I hit rock bottom.
and (as far as it seems) I ruined the night I wanted to be most special for you.
I didnt know till now but what I did was selfish.
I thought it would help.
well.. to be honest.. if I hadn't have gotten sick.. It would have lol <3
I just feel so alone right now.
with out my phone... with out my car...
no contact.
I need to someone.
anyone.
I NEED TO..
pretty sure I lost like 10 lbs last night heh...

going to the doctor tomorrow so.. we will find out soon.. what is wrong with me.

Valentine's Day!!!

*STAID UP TILL 7AM FINISHING OUR PHOTO ALBUM BOOK.

*FINISHED MAKING COOKIES(mom helped <333)

*GAVE MOM LITTLE BOX,WITH CANDY IN IT

*SHE GAVE ME YUMMY Rondnoir Ferrero'S Mmmm (MILK,DARK,COCONUT)

*VISITED JON! AT WORK<3 WHEN I WALKED IN HE GRABBED ME AND SAID "THIS IS MY VALENTINE!" ARGIE WAS LIKE "I THOUGHT I WAS YOUR VALENTINE?" HUNG OUT AT HIS WORK FOR A BIT. WAS FUN ^.^ VERY WELCOMING PLACE, HIS FRIEND (ARGIE) GUESSED WHAT ALL HIS PRESENTS WERE FROM THE PACKAGING. JON CALLED ME WHILE HE AND THE GUYS WERE CLEANING UP, ARGIE THOUGHT I FARTED LMAO, I LIKE THEM. "OOH A PIECE OF CANDY""

*JON FINALLY SAW HIS GIFTS AT 7, SAID IT WAS F*CKING AWESOME AND WAS SPEECHLESS <33333333333 I'M SO GLAD HE LIKED IT!!!! <3

*NEW, MAKE-UP FOREVER, FOUNDATION- 123 IS REALLY ITCHY! I THINK MY FACE IS ALLERGIC!

*JON TOOK ME TO CHEESECAKE FACTORY!!!! CHEESECAKE WITH EXTRA EXTRA STRAWBERRIES!!! Mmmmmmmmmmmmm!!!! AND POMEGRANATE PATRON. TODAY WAS AMAZING! WAS GREAT! WAS PERFECT! <333

*NEW UNDERGARMENTS LOL CRACK HOLE LMAO WHY WOULD YOU PUT THAT THERE AERIES??

*BEST SEXYTIME EVER <3 0:]

*LOTS OF CUDDLE!

*FAMILY GUY

*DROVE ME HOME

*KISSES

*I HAVE THE BEST BOYFRIEND FOREVER!

TEXT HE WROTE ME THIS MORNING BEFORE HE GOT MY GIFTS.
"Morning BabY, Happy Valentine's Day! I wish I was there to hug and kiss you with our nasty morning breath. You're the best person I know and I love you with all my heart and much more. I look forward to a loving and long life with you xoxo. I wish I could do more than this for you on this day."


WHAT HE TEXT AFTER HE SAW GIFTS:
"Babe how am I gonna match this?"
I said "Not required love <3 you like?"
Him: "Speechless"
^.^
"I just don't know how to react" "It's so much"
(I didn't think it was too much):
36 <3 shaped cookies I made
Giant Box of Fruity Pebbles
Almond Joy
Kit Kat
Sweethearts
Rondnoir Ferrero
Filled hiSs back seat with Balloons I blew up and wrote: I love you, compliments, different languages etc on.

He's worth it!

HIS RESPONSE.
"It's fuckin awesome"

I think today was my favorite Valentine's Day <3

Birthday Wish List, let's start Early

Well.. 1st of all.. I'm about done with school!!! yay! if I can ever pass these gay test... :'[

so idk I'm bored, don't really want too much? so here:

I got everything I wanted for Christmas,
but:
lens and accessories for my camera
Money
Gauges
New car (RX-8, Honda civic si or fit, Lancer)
Clothes(Urban outfitters,Forever 21,Delia's)
Shoes,
Makeup (MAC Cosmetics)
Bras and panties from aeries by AE
Perfume (Romance)
Tattoos or removal or covered.