I hit rock bottom.
and (as far as it seems) I ruined the night I wanted to be most special for you.
I didnt know till now but what I did was selfish.
I thought it would help.
well.. to be honest.. if I hadn't have gotten sick.. It would have lol <3
I just feel so alone right now.
with out my phone... with out my car...
no contact.
I need to someone.
anyone.
I NEED TO..
pretty sure I lost like 10 lbs last night heh...

going to the doctor tomorrow so.. we will find out soon.. what is wrong with me.